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Sharing the journey of the girl who found herself on the other side of the world. Blogging my way into your hearts by sharing my personal stories of fails and wins throughout this crazy thing we call life.
Gabby Bernstein is an amazing individual and light worker. If you’re not familiar with her; she has written books such as “Add More Ing to Your Life”; “Spirit Junkie”; “May Cause Miracles”; “Miracles Now” and her most recent book is “The Universe Has Your Back”. On Sunday, October 9; Gabby visited Phoenix, Arizona for the first time to promote this new book. I’ve always wanted to see her speak in person; so when I got the chance, I jumped at it! The event was wonderful. From the moment Gabby stepped out on stage; she was glowing. She is clearly fully vested in her purpose and journey of spreading spiritual and life lessons. I was in awe the entire time! You could feel the vibrant energy of the entire room. It’s remarkable when like-minded individuals come together.
One of the stories she shared resonated with me down to my core. It was about motherhood; or at least the journey and yearning in regards to becoming a mommy…someday. Gabby mentioned that at one point a few years back she had her motherhood journey “planned” out. Once her and her husband Zach decided to start trying for a child; she was so convinced that she had this whole journey planned out that she would cancel plans 9 months out from the time they were trying to conceive since she was SURE she’s be pregnant. Talk about confident! J After about 8-9 months of trying and cancelling the subsequent events that were coming up in 9 months; she finally sat back and thought “hmm, this isn’t working.” Queue the “silent” shame gremlins! Gabby started to feel inadequate as a woman watching “all” of her friends having and raising babies. Yup, most of us women feel as though it is our calling to be mothers. At least for Gabby and myself that is the case.
Well, one of Gabby’s most valuable lessons she shared was “to surrender”. So, that’s what she did. She surrendered to the fact that clearly the Universe was saying it’s not the right time yet. Isn’t that downright frustrating? Let’s face it; our time and the Universe’ time are never aligned it seems. As she surrendered to the fact that mommy-hood was still a ways off; she had a revelation. “I had to learn to mother myself.” BOOM! Straight to the heart for me. Because much like Gabby; I have been longing to be a mommy for as long as I can remember. In fact in my early twenties I would say statements with conviction like “By the time I’m 25 I will be done having my two or three children; I want to be the young and cool mom!” Boy, was I ever so wrong.
So, there it was. Perhaps the revelation that Gabby had; was my revelation too. We must learn to mother ourselves and perhaps those around us, all while holding on to the faith that we will indeed get the blessing of a child one day.
I must say, for myself, in the past 4 years; I’ve really dove into self-care, self-reflection, self-love, self-confidence and everything else that is needed prior to the healthy relationship and family that I so long for. I’ve learned that you have to do the work; on yourself. I’ve learned to “mother myself” so to speak and I’m ever so grateful. Although; I’ve cried many times feeling as though I’m going to miss out on being a mom; I now know that when the time is right; it will happen and it will be effortless and amazing. All because I’ve surrendered and accepted what will be, will be. So, thank you Gabby for sharing such a personal and vulnerable story with us. It moved me and I realized I’m not alone. I look forward to the day I am a mother, but until then; I’ll keep working on being the best person I can be while sharing my light with the world.
Love and Light, Tianna Leigh
Having authentic conversation makes my heart sing. I love hugs. I live for connecting with people on a deeper level. I feel as though it is my soul calling to share my stories and perspective to be a light in this world. I'm exactly where I need to be and I'm very much looking forward to the bright future...