I Used To Want To Be Invisible
We’ve all had those moments in life where we wish we were invisible; typically for a specific moment; to avoid an uncomfortable or embarrassing situation.
We’ve all had those moments in life where we wish we were invisible; typically for a specific moment; to avoid an uncomfortable or embarrassing situation. I was recently reflecting on my early twenties; as I often do, and remembered that I wished that I could wear a paper bag over my head when I was out in the world. I literally said that out loud. I wished I was invisible. I can now attribute this to the fact that I had little self-worth, little self-love, and little self-confidence. I felt I had little to offer. I felt without a man to love me or a posse of friends by my side; I was worthless. I simply wanted to be under the radar when out in public. I did not want to be seen; physically or emotionally.
I share these old wounds because life is so different now. I now put myself out there (like writing blogs like this); vulnerably and authentically. Not only is my actual face seen on my Tianna Leigh website, Facebook page, and various social media; I feel like a bit of my soul is seen too. Not only am I now putting myself out there in the public eye on a regular basis; I now make decisions that are aligned with my true self. I finally grew to be comfortable in my own skin; after a lot of losses and a lot of hard work on myself. It’s amazing to see this growth in my own journey. It’s amazing that once upon a time I never would have dreamed of putting myself out there and now I am lit up when I do. I don’t do it for the clout or the ego; it feels like an authentic calling to share my truths through my writing. I believe it would be a disservice not to share. Grateful that I no longer want to be invisible and instead want to shine love and light wherever I can. I will continue to share my heart with the world and hope that it helps wherever I can.
The lessons learned that I want to share are that:
You should never want to be invisible.
You are seen.
You are worthy.
You are loveable.
You do matter.
People love you for you.
You can speak your truth.
You can be seen at your worst and still be loveable.
You have unique gifts to offer this world.
Your existence has purpose.
You are exactly where you are supposed to be.
You are loved.